Kim, you MUST know that I wish you well. And you should also know that I understand the feelings that come with the depression. I've had them all my life. And even though I do not have diabetes, I have been diagnosed with some thyroid condition. It has caused me to regain all the weight that I so proudly took off and kept off and I feel like a failure. So I can certainly sympathize with you, even if I do not walk in your shoes. I want you to take care of yourself and I want you to return to pet talk where you are a VITAL part of the community. WE need you, even if you do not need us. I will be waiting for your return and I will welcome you with open arms.