Thank you.

I do not see it as looking for "when" but as I'm afraid he may be in pain. I promiced myself I would never let an animal suffer no matter how much it hurts me. I've heard about 50 different things from everyone I've talked to. I'm very confused. Also, I do not see him as just a pet friend. He is much more then a friend to me. Well, he is a friend I mean, but also much more. Hes family (I don't know if that sounds stupid to you ppl) to me. He was the buddy I always could count on, whenever I was younger, I had some rough times..and I cannot remember ONE time I needed someone to huggle into and cry, or just someone to..urg ok this sounds really stupid. I'm sorry. I can't explain things well. Basically he was always around since I can remember and I can't image him not there someday. I know its a fact of life and all. I think having Jo would help take some of the pain from it. I didn't..'raise' (or whatever you call it,) Rufus, he's more like a brother to me or something, but Jo I did, and shes my little girl..ok I'm gonna shut up now and just leave or something cause that probably sounds soo stupid and I'm really sorry..I can't explain things well so I sound like an idiot. I hope you don't think I'm a freak or something lol. Just had to tell someone.