I think of you often Julie. Being unable to conceive has no doubt contributed to the depression - that constant letdown each month. I also can empathize with the weight battle and emotional eating.

How about making yourself "report in" here to PT and we will help you stay on your exercise and eating plan. Maybe you can reach a moderate size so you are happier about it - but not thin and vain We can't have THAT!!

(((((HUGS))))