Thanks all of you knowing ,helps so much.
Kay thanks for the cross posting. Merlin had nbeen ill most of his 8 1/2 years, I bought him knowing he had heart problems. I was blessed to have him as long as I did, He had an illregular heart beat that after about 4 years no med. lasted more than 4 months regulating. So we decided to just let it be. After his getting in to my 1lb chocholte bar. It messed up his edrenale system so I just treated him with natrual things to make him comfy . But the move upset him so that he started to chew at his tummy . On Thursday I knew it was time as he woke up, and had chewed a open wound on the penal sheath. The vet and I set the Beauul Sat afternoon as his day. It was sunny and peaceful , He was listing to the birds sing and watching the horses fun . ( Country vet with great lawn and trees.)
I really this morning know how much I depended on him , I had an diabetic episode and luckly hubby was here to notice, usually Merlin alerted me to it before it happened. It's going to be hard to make sure I test more often.
Thanks for all the lovely thoughts.