Johanna, I love how you put that
I'm so close to tears right now. The emotions running through me are completely beyond description. I'm completely floored with excitement about meeting my baby, but also completely terrified that Noon will arrive on Tueaday with no progress and they'll send me home. Or worse, that they will have too many natural labors going on to induce me. At the same time I'm worried (for lack of a better word) about what type of Mom I'll be. Will he be a good little breastfeeder? Will I be able to give him what he needs? WIll I be able to shape this tiny little human being into a kind, compassionate adult? I never thought that I could feel so much all at once.
I'm less than 24 hours away from the time I'm due to check in at the hospital and it feels like it's impossible. I remember feeling like this before I got married. It just didn't feel real because I didn't believe that anything that perfect could ever happen to me. Now here I am, my bags are packed and I'm ready to bring a little life into the world. This is quite possibly the last night that Paul and I will have alone in our home. EVERYTHING changes starting tommorrow night. When will it feel real? It "hits" me from time to time, but I really don't think that it HAS really hit me yet. This wiggling lump in my stomach is coming out and the doctors and going to send him home with us. "Are you crazy doc? You're just gonna let us take him home???"

I see that I'm rambling, so I should go and attempt to sleep. I'm not going to bother turning off the computer tonight because I'm quite certain that sleep will be very hard to come by. Thank you all for your kind words and support throughout my pregnancy. I feel like I have a HUGE extended family here on PetTalk