I can not concentrate on anything I cleaned up my house a little bit, but I just keep thinking about my little guy and end up sitting at the computer doing even more research about the drug they are gonna use.
It's called Cytotec, it's a little white pill that was designed to help stomach ulcers, but was found to ripen the cervix quite well. It's not the same as cervadil or other gel type thingies, but supposedly works even better. A friend of mine got the cytotec at about 9pm and had her baby at about 10am the next morning!

I can hardly believe that I'm going to be holding my baby in my arms so soon.

I'm very good at convincing myself that I'm feeling something. I wonder if there is any way for the docs to TELL me that they're giving me pain meds, but really just give me saline. Seeing a "drug" being inserted into my IV would probably work almost as well on me as the drug itself would

I don't think I'm going to be able to sleep tonight