I wish every one of you were here so I can get so much hugs as I needed I love hugs.

I just woke up alone and I forgot crayola was with me, I looked under the bed quick, he's still there! oh gosh, I slept for SO long.... over 13 hours.

I'm still in hospital and almost had tube going in me if I refused to eat.. it makes me wanna puke! apple juice almost did. my salinas friend stopped by to take my little PATIENT guy out and she told me everything she did with my pets and made me smile she brushed all of my cats and gave them treats. told me one of my cat, Zephyra, mew constantly allllll night for me. (she's hearing) - she took a short video (from my camera) of her meowings.. OH my dear,..........! I saw it and she looked at the camera, MEW to death!!! (probably 2 meows in a second and continued for up to 10 seconds then rest... and again! again...) it made me cry...I wanna squeeeeze her! I sure HOPE she's okay. friend said she played fine, ate her breakfast this morning, pooped, etc...sigh. I don't know.. I guess I'm so depressed not being home *tears falling*

spinal tap is so YUCKY, my back hurts really bad and I get brusied easily. just had my 4th water IV bag. going have EGE/EEG (not sure how spelled?) in an hour or two. I've not seen a doctor all day yet. for now, I'm gonna lurk through this site...