Oh Tonya! ((((HUGS)))) for you and family. My step Dad committed suicide and I know how hard that is on the ones they leave behind. The guilt you are left with is so heavy. Just remember this, if that is what he wanted to do, nothing anyone could have done would have stopped him. I intervened with my step Dad and got him help but he STILL did it 6 weeks later. It is NO ONES fault and there was NOTHING anyone could have done to prevent this!

They are ill when they do this and I believe God does not hold it against them and they are let into heaven dispite this last mistake.