I really hope things work out for you mate, and if Slick can help, well that would be great.

My advice could only really come from my own experiences, and that might not be the best given your own particular circumstances. Suffice to say it took many years to rebuild what relationship I had with my father. So whatever you do decide to do, make sure it's not out of spite, but from logic. To get that logic seek advice from people you know and respect.