Definately not a pointless thread. I think some of us can understand your pain. I think about my rb dogs everyday. I live by the quote "Whoever is gone will not be forgotten" (((hugs))) If you just need to talk pm me or feel free to vent here. I am sure everyone well not everyone but some of us understand. Hang in there. I know there is no words that I can say to make you feel better. I wish our pets lived forever.