randi, the flowers are so beautiful!!!!....i really wish that i had had a chance to have known john, with all of the posts that i have read, i know that he truly was a very special and wonderful human being....i do know how hard it is to cope with the loss of someone so close to you, it is very hard, but with the help of fister, friends and family you will get through this randi...after my mother and brother passed away, my sisters took flowers from the funeral and dried and pressed them and put them in a picture frame, also they took some of my mom's and brother's favorite sweaters and made pillows out of them, and these things i really cherish now...i hope this helps to ease some of your pain, hang in there randi...