DON'T feel any of those things. Breeders (in general) are VERY strange people. [sorry, I don't mean to step on any toes, but I find this to be true]. Just love on your currentr kitties, and who knows what might pop up sometime. I feel Marty lost out on a great home, but I feel even stronger that another BETTER kitty is waiting to be a Sirrah-cat, and you will be GLAD that you had the open space.

HUG!