I'm so sorry you had to experience this. Big hugs for you. I have no advice for you. I do like what Karen suggested though.

I have had a similiar experience also and it still sticks with me. I saw a woman's body laying in the middle of a street after she had jumped to her death. It was not bloody or gory but there was just something very creepy about the way her body was positioned and knowing she wouldn't survive. To this day I can still see her foot in a wierd position and her tennis shoe laying close by where it had been knocked off her foot. *shivers*

Robin