Hugs to you tonight. Perhaps calling the police or the hospital, and getting some assurance on that guy's condition will help you sleep tonight. Take a blank piece of paper and write down every horrible detail that you saw - think of it as a "brain dump" and then fold that piece of paper up and put it in a drawer where you won't see it. That way if you ever need to give details to someone you have it, but can then forget it.

Then play with Lolly til she makes those growly silly monster noises that made me giggle when I saw/heard them back when we were in Texas. Laugh until your sides ache, and maybe some of the ickiness will go away.

Big hugs to you.

Not a medical professional, just a fellow human bean!