Tina, I hope you might reconsider this decision. I don't really have any thoughts to add except that I still believe strongly in what I wrote in my last post regarding Jake and you. I do think perhaps that fostering would be a lot of emotional strain on you, and there's nothing wrong with deciding it's too much for you to handle. I know that one counseling session isn't going to make you immediately stronger and able to handle what you're going through. My honest and best advice would be to give things more time, go to more counseling, and wait to add another family member until you are really stable emotionally and financially. Perhaps you could at least meet with your counselor again and talk things over before making the final decision?

I still think you'd get so much out of doing something with one of your older pups. Ginger seems so sweet with people, perhaps she would make a good therapy dog? I think you'd get so much out of taking one of the pups to brighten the days of the sick and lonely, I know I got a lot out of it when I did it with my collies. Perhaps it'd be something to look into.

If you have questions, or need to talk, you are always welcome PM me. Above all, try to be true to yourself and honest with yourself. That is what matters most.