Last night my husband was over an hour late from work. He generally works until 10 p.m., and is about a 5-10 minute drive away depending on traffic. As 10:30 and then 11 p.m. passed, my anxious mind began thinking the worst and I became more fearful. I tried calling him at work but he can't answer the phone if he's working because he's on the phone with customers all the time. By the time 11:30 came my fear factor was so high that something horrible had happened. But he finally drove in. He had had extreme difficulties with work and had not been able to get away to call me, but he was okay, except for being very upset with his work problems.

The night before, I had a vivid dream of losing my mother. Maybe that's partly why I got so extremely fearful and anxious last night when he was so late. Then last night I dreamed over and over of deaths and losses in my family.

I got up feeling so drained and down this morning. While I was posting to a few other threads, I saw the announcement come up.. I had a flood of tears before I could even bear to open it.

I don't know what to think. I feel confused, afraid, sad. My greatest fear last night is Randi's reality now. I just feel stunned.

I hope sharing these things are not inappropriate here, it's just that this hit me so powerfully, it's so hard to find the "right" words to say.

Thank you for posting the threads. I have mostly seen Jonza's threads in the Dog House, which I enjoyed, and I wish to see these warmer tales, to share more in his memory.