SB,
I know what's it like to lose a father. My father died when I was 20 from a massive heart attack. Just know it does get easier and you will cry less when you think of him, and smile more. I still have bouts of crying and it's been almost 5 years (March 4th). I think he is here with me and talk to him sometimes when I'm alone..it makes me feel better. **HUGS**

Sarah