Tina, I'm very proud of you and you should be even more proud of yourself! You are taking those first very difficult steps to sort your life out and do what is best for you and your pets. Big {{HUGS}} to you for looking inside yourself and doing what is best for you and for all the furkids. It may not be the easiest thing but it is a strong and caring thing you are doing, and what makes me happiest is to hear of your plans to get involved in things that will really make you feel wonderful and good inside. My most heartfelt best wishes for you as you travel this new path .