We have all been going through hard times as you can see here. I lost my grandpa when I was 5 and it hurts me now to know that I never really got to know him. I am very sorry about your dad. He is up in heaven watching over you right now. He may not be on earth right now, but the memories you two have shared will last forever, and nobody can make them go away. {{{HUGS}}} Remember, things will get better, it just takes time.