So sorry things turned out getting worse but now I hope they will start to get better. You are not a bad mom. Sadie had high anxiety when she was younger and ate multiple pads as well as lots of other things that could have done damage and that I never imagined she would chew on. You can't foresee all dangers and fortunately things usually don't turn into a medical emergency.

LOTS of good thoughts and well wishes heading your way. Bailey get well soon!