Aly, belive the doctors who say she will be all right. I know and love cancer survivors whom doctors said were doomed - and that was years ago! I know you were so ready to love Maddie - but think, too, of the joy she will bring to a whole new family. Love up Reese and Lolly and tell them how much they mean to you. And if your mom's gonna be in the hospital, maybe Lolly can visit as Pet Therapy!