My words are not brilliant and wise but I care and want your tears to dry. I wish I could ease your pain and the suffering you are experiencing today.
You are doing the right thing, Kiki shouldn't suffer after giving you pleasure for so many years. On Friday when you come home just think of Kiki having gone into another room, and you don't need to worry because you know she is safe.......
God Bless you and a stroke for Kiki; she's fortunate you have enough love for her to do the right thing.