First of all, I say drop the courses. Your first semester/quarter GPA is what you have to start from, and if it's too low, you will be working the rest of your time in college to try and bring it up. I know from experience. Don't feel guilty about it (easier said than done, I know) - you will live to regret it if you end up messing up your GPA for the rest of your four years in school.

PLEASE don't hurt yourself. We care about you. I agree with k9soul - find a way to let out your pain. For me, watching sad movies and letting myself cry, or working out until I could barely walk home helped.

...I know what you feel like right now. Believe me when I say it WILL get better.

PS I never listened in Computer Sciene either