Eeee...............I hate *speaking* in public......even though I have, but it just feels so uncomfortable.

I don't know what to tell you on the topic. I guess the purpose of life, is something that everyone sees differently, depending on their beliefs. If I had to speak on this topic, I would know exactly what to say from my point of view, but I don't know how you see such things from your point of view. Perhaps if you can list the points in your mind regarding what the meaning of life is, maybe then we can help you.