Now until I push "send" I won't be sure whether I can say something to that theme because I think of it 20% of my day since it came up.

Everything I say now is about Lut. I was never interested in Niina.

First I was really shocked. Leaving a board is one story: the priorities in your life change and just the way you move, you change employers or stop practising the piano you may not be interested in Pet Talk anymore. But deleting all the threads you started is real hard work and it is work involving emotions.

Then I was upset. I considered Lut to be one of my online friends. Why hadn't she said something? How could she delete also my contributions to threads and the one of others I loved. Some of the threads when our kitties were travelling and partying had been so much fun. I would have named them for top 2003 threads.

Now I start to get over it. I am terribly sorry for Lut. I know these threads were fun, warmth and creativity and I am afraid she cancelled some of that in her life too. I begin to understand a little of her feelings that must be completely mixed up if a wave of warmth and understanding and love like the one in this thread and her guestbook doesn't get through to her.

If this didn't get through then there is nothing that can be done online. I hope she has her family and some real good real life friends to help her.