I am so sorry Aly, but you know that it was NOT your fault. That baby could not have been in better hands! These things DO happen and the more animals that pass through your life, the more likely it is to happen, but that kitten had a special bond with you, so it hurts, but he was better off being with you than being without you. Now go give those other kitties some extra loving and have a good cry. and then give them some MORE loving. {{{{HUGS}}}}