Aly my friend, I hope that we at PetTalk have provided a little light in your darkness... now go get Reece & Lolly and hug those blackie pups & Skyler and let life begin anew. An oldie but a goodie, "this is the first day in the rest of your life". I pray it's a good start for you. I also hope that doesn't sound cold or harsh you know how much I care I hope.