Good-Bye Cody, My Love

[Sudilar]

Oh dear, dear Karen. My heart is breaking for your great loss of Cody. We are losing another one of our own. I can hardly type through the tears. How fitting it is that it is raining, cold and gloomy here today. That is how my heart feels right now. I wish I could be right there with you to try to help you through this. Cry, cry, cry til you can't cry anymore...then cry again. It feels like your own heart is torn out! I know, I've been there twice before with my furangels.

I always used to cry the most in the shower. The tears are washed away. After a long while, the tears will stop and smiles will come as you think of the fun times with dear, sweet Cody. You will remember all the fun and what a lucky boy he was to have had you to love him for all that time. And how lucky you were to have had him to love you back.

The house will feel so empty now. The hardest part will be coming home. The silence is deafening. (crying here thinking about it....) Again, I wish I could comfort you. Right now is the most difficult time. As many days go by, it gets a bit easier, even though you don't think it is possible.

When Avalanche died, I thought that I had to do something that would not have made her death in vain. Because she was gone to RB, I had space and room in my heart for another. In her honor, I saved a life. I took Killian literally from death row (sick and all). Killian could live because Avalanche had to die. It took me about 6 weeks of searching the shelters to find the right one to save. I visited the shelter so often that I didn't even have to sign in. I was allowed to just walk in to look.

Whenever I felt down and sad or started to cry thinking about Avalanche's passing, Killian would do something silly to make me laugh again. He would not let me be sad.

I also made a picture album of all of Avalanches' pictures (with an angel on the cover, because she was my Angel). I also bought a Sandicast figure of a Great Pyrenees and put her tags around its neck.

Sorry this is so long. I just want you to know that my heart is with you and your Mom. Try to remember dear Cody at a happy time and smile through your tears. I am so heartfully sorry at your great loss.

HUGS and love to you and your Mom.

Rest in peace, dear Cody, happy and whole again, running with all of our dear RB buddies. We love you.