EB, Thankyou so much, you have made me feel so much better about all the things I feel I have put Ross through.

When I first got him I was 14 and he was my 2nd horse, the first thing he did when we got him home was show what his previous owners had hidden, on hacks he reared, took off and was very nappy. My instructor could do nothing with him, but in the field and over jumps he was another horse. It took me 4 years of hard work on my own before I wasn't terrified of hacking him out. He's my horse and we both know it, when I ride other horses or someone else rides him it is just not the same.

With the new yard his well-being is my no1 concern, I don't care if they groom him everyday infact I just want him left alone with is horsey buddies out in the field in the summer and in the winter want his rugs changed and him put out all day.

"Now this doesn't necessarily mean you will have to baby him day and night every time you move him" oh but I do, even though I will pay for his care I will be with him morning and all evening fr the first month of his time there, as I have always done.

He's a funny thing, when I go home and see him for the first day he actually ignores me. No calling to me when I pull up in the car, no coming over to me from the field. And if I try to ride him he is most un-cooperative!!! The next day however it is like we have never been apart.

The yard owners daughter lives in the same city and has been talking about moving her horse, Cori. I am hoping that we can organise something and move the 2 horses together, to the same place and help care for both horses. That would be the almost perfect solution to me.

Finally those 8 years ago I sold my first pony, anther ratbag The family I sold him to ruined him (bowed tendons and he almsot died of laminitis) I couldn't bear to go and see him but I know they still own him. As soon as I am financially secure enough I am going to buy him back - rather than buy myself a bigger horse. To see him and Ross together is my ultimate dream, to know they are both safe and happy.

Thanks again EB, sorry vermontcat that I have waffled on so.