All I can say is I've been there done that and I really do feel for you. It is very, very hard to deal with. When my ex left after Sept 11th, I thought for sure he'd be killed over there in the Middle East. We are not together anymore but we were also supposed to be married. I am just grateful my current bf is not in the military. I don't think I could handle it again I will keep you and Joey in my prayers.