She is such a sweetie!!!
I'm sorry that it's not going to work out with her, that is sad.
I was looking forward to meeting her on one of your trips up here too!!
I hope she finds a wonderful forever home, and that you can heal without her.
There are a few rescues and organizations here, and they let you take the dogs home for a few days to make sure that he/she is a fit for your family and lifestyle. Let me know, and I can get you any phone numbers.