I think that no one wants to be a burden, be dependant, all physically screwed up. I hate it, even for a little while. It makes me realize how awsome people are that have physical challenges and how they adapt. I may be more crippled by my fear of being physically dependant than being physically dependent after surgery. Either way, that insight doesn't help me one measly bit. I am furious I have to get surgery, absolutely f ing furious.