I had a shave my head party with my closest friends and a fair amount of wine I was ok with the loss of my hair, losing my eyelashes and eyebrows freaked me out as it seemed to make me lose all color in my face...I compared myself to a naked mole rat keep a positive attitude but allow yourself to process things...a very good friend told me to schedule my meltdowns...allowing time to fall apart was important. Also important, let people help you! You can do this!!!