I am so sorry for your loss. I understand how finances can affect what you do with regards to health care. I am still kicking myself for not proceeding with a surgery when a tumor burst in my cat's bowel. The vet said it was 50-50 chance and I decided based on lack of money to let him go over the Rainbow Bridge. You did all you could for little Borris and she knows that. It's hard I know at this time as your emotions and sorrow are in overdrive. Try to remember the good times and the fact that you gave Borris a loving home and did everything you could to keep her happy and healthy. She is watching over you now and will be with you in spirit forever.