These past days have just about been unbearable. My heart feels dark and heavy. I keep begging Dasher to visit me like Duke did. I just want to know he's ok. Tuesday night when I was going to bed, for a split second, I thought about calling him. I always showed him the way to his bed in the dark. Then I remembered Yesterday, I couldn't wait to get off work and to my car so I could cry. I did better tonight but still cried all the way home. I miss him so much. I've ordered a clear dog bone locket that I'm going to put his hair in. Maybe that will help me to feel closer to him. I'll be glad when this pain goes away. I'd have done anything to save him.