Thank you so much for trying to cheer me up. Of course I know I'm not completely alone with my PT family - and my sweet kitty girls... And I do have friends, even though they live far apart, but we're talking the phone. And I'm feeling almost ungrateful that I'm complaining 'cause one of them made this wonderful gift, my new camera...
But often I'm just feeling so empty and lost 'cause I'm always alone in real life, I'm spending every day entirely on my own, and it's hard to change that and build up new friendships here in my hometown with all these health isssues.

No, I'm not religious, I don't have a religion; sometimes I wish I had, I guess things were easier to cope with. I'm trying to be a good person, I'm trying to be tolerant and open-minded, I'm trying not to judge... and I just hope I'll have a better karma in my next life - if there is such a thing anyway.

I don't think I could ever have a relationship. All these health problems are too much of a burden to put this on others. That's why I have to go through this life alone. I'll never be "a part of something", and that is something that's making me very sad for a while now...

Candace, thanks for the link, and the information.

pomtzu, thank you for sharing your experiences with me, re. the spinal surgeries. That's a lot to deal with, and that cervical condition sounds really scary! Glad these surgeries helped.

happylabs, I never heard of hyperparathyroidism before. I was only familiar with hyperthyroidism and hypothyroidism, all these hormonal things are so complex. Besides, my feeling is that there's still a lot of research to be done in that field. I hope you'll feel better!


As for the surgery: I'm not sure if they would remove the entire pituitary gland; it sounded to me as if they would only remove the tumor. Anyway, I have already read that they have a tendency to recidivate, so I would probably need these meds that keep them small... the one that causes psychosis... and I really fear that, as I've seen a person with a psychosis a few years ago, and that was horrible; she was about to destroy everyone around her, she even wanted to kill Luna and Lily, and I would rather be dead than being like that.