Taking some well needed respite...

[moosmom]

I've been struggling these past few months with my depression, animal advocacy, the dog stabbing trial and just life in general. There is something going on with me that is beginning to scare me.

I've been on Lexapro for over 5 years and I have a feeling it's not working anymore, so I have a call into my doctor. I know last week was tough for everyone on the 10th anniversary of 911. I had to shut the tv off and just play my cd's.

I've been sleeping WAY too much (anywhere from 10-18 hours a day, another sign the meds aren't working), haven't really been outta my apartment except to get necessities for me and the fur crew, cry on and off for no apparent reason. I just don't have the "oomph" that I had before. Everywhere I go online animal abuse, pictures of dead and injured pets. Maybe I'm taking it too personally, I don't know. But I know I have to do this or I'm going to crash, putting my health and sobriety in serious jeopardy. I will NOT jeopardize 18 years.

So, while I may sneak in now and again to see how everyone is doing, I'm stepping away from my computer for a while. Depending upon the outcome on Nov. 1 (next court date for Alexander Bernard), if the Judge frees Bernard, I'll also be taking at LEAST six months off of actively rescuing of any kind. If they decide on a trial? Well, I'll decide IF and WHEN it happens.

I love you all very much. You have become my extended family and I really don't know what I'd do without you.

Take care of yourselves and each other.