Oh, my heart sank when I read about Lilac! I rarely post anymore but am here every day keeping track. I feel your pain and self doubt, I've been there. Please don't think you failed her. We can only take on so much. I just wish I lived closer! I'd be there in a heartbeat trying to help find those poor little ones. Are there any humane groups in your area? Surely someone would be willing to come out and try to find those babies. This is a heartbreaking situation. I know you are sick about Lilac as we all are. We are all here for you! (((HUGS)))