Quote Originally Posted by Alysser View Post
I've been working at the same place for 3 years now and have to take a test every time the season starts and go through training every year. I agree, it's quite ridiculious.


Dear whoever,

It's 12:55 AM and I can't sleep again. I am once again sick of thinking of the past and all these regrets I have. I keep thinking about all the regrets I am going to create for myself in the future. College is around the corner and I think I'm headed in the right direction, but..who knows? I don't want to move 700 miles away from home and not end up enjoying it because I'm homesick. I know what I want with my life, I think, but it's not going to be easy. I need to learn to stop listening to everyone. I'm sick of being the only person who believes in myself. I'm sick of hearing the same stupid crap from the same arrogant people who know nothing about my field of choice. I'm sick of all of the BS that comes with high school. I'm sick of SAT's, tutors, grades, drama, my program, stupid teachers, AP exams, stupid ridiculious rules and all of it. I'm just sick of school..I want to be done. I want to actually start learning things that will mean something to me in my life as a Marine Biologist...I have 2 months of school left, but as far as I'm concerned I'm done already. I can't wait till summer when I can go back to work, sleep late, stay out late, hang out with my friends, and have the freedom to do what I want.

love,
me
Dear Alysser,

It will get better. Don't think about things in your past as regrets, think of them as a learning experience. You may not like what happened or the choices you made, but as the years go by they won't bother you so much! Trust me, I've made plenty, and it does lessen. Also, you may be able to help someone with one of your regrets! And i know exactly where you are at! I was there once and it totally sucked! BUT it does get better. Just try and find the joys in at least one thing a day and it makes the days seem a little better. If you ever want to talk, you can PM me!

Understandingly,

Miranda Rae