I just got my computer back; another bad virus, so I was w/out it for nearly 3 days. Barney's was the first thread I went to and I'm just so disheartened to read this, even though I knew that this would eventually happen. Lara, I wish I could be there to help you through this. You've done so much for our Barney and this is so difficult for you, I know. I can recall how I felt when my Puddy was going downhill. It seemed as though I'd make the decision to help her to the Bridge and then she'd rally. My very last post was when you had told me about trying the B complex injected into her bag of fluids and she did so well for two days, it was as though I had my ol' Pudilator back. My last words were "Life is good". Then she suddenly took a turn for the worse and was gone w/in one hour. So I can understand and totally relate to your dilemma w/not knowing if you should let Barney go or not. All I can say w/certainty is that I can see on the video how he's deteriorated but you are the one who is giving him such good care, so you are the only one who can know for sure when it's time. However, it's clear that Barney is ready at any time now, if that's any consolation. You won't be selling him short; you'll be doing the last act of kindness for him but only when you know that he's just plain had enough of this life.

I love you, Barney and I love you, too, Lara. You're the best.