I slapped myself upside the head a few times and hung my head in shame.
Okay, and NOW hug yourself and don't be ashamed. You are human and there are posts by other hoomins here who go through the same thing.

My mom and I are it. Darcia had no kids, I didn't (and now parts are missing ). This branch of the family tree will be closed for good.

But dammit, for Christmas this year, we are NOT having just "turkey breast" - I am buying a whole darn free-range turkey, and will peel all the taters for Mom to do real mashed ones (not out of a box THIS year!), with for real gravy and carrots AND punkin pie!!!

L'chaim! TO LIFE!