Right now I am just plain SCARED.

1. I live in one of two condo buildings. The Reserve Fund Study was just handed out. That just shows what repairs have to be done in the next few years - and they are major...two boilers, new roof being the biggies. We knew this was coming.

With the price increase in NG, and these repairs, the monthly condo/maint fees will go up an average of $200 per month. I pay $320 right now, and having a 2 bdrm means my increase will be above average.

I can't afford to live here if that is the case. There is a meeting on the 24th...I am suggesting either a Special Assessment - a one time payout for repairs - or peddling these 30 year old buildings to a developer and getting some form of payout.

My realtor - a good guy - thinks I should sell and get out NOW - so I am just trying to see what he and I can put together as far as another place to live...

2. I am a bag of nerves again...just really jittery. Though my present bosses are nice and fair people, I am reacting to my job the way I used to - getting more and more stressed and fearful until I get too sick to work any more.

I am taking today, and hopefully tomorrow, to work on these 'old tapes' so I can look forward to going to work. This long meltdown started over a week ago, and really crashed on Wednesday night...add one for Friday.

Just want good thoughts, and prayers, and everything, as I am telling myself I am loved, and a good and intelligent person - and I can be healthy and will be so starting now.

Using the Law of Attraction (God, etc) - I will be making a list of everything I want in life, and believing it is on its way to me. In addition, I will be replacing destructive thoughts with good ones.

I want to call my bosses and say I am trying to trade off tomorrow with the other gal (waiting for a call back) and I am terrified.

My mind has turned them into monsters...and they are not. My mind is confusing them with other bosses who have been...not healthy for me.

THANK YOU for listening.

C