Gary, I think that what I love more than anything about cats and animals in general is that they're quick to forgive. Pouncer forgave you instantly. And, really, there was nothing to forgive anyhow. You did what you could w/what you had at that time and the fact that you're still sad about it 15 years later proves that you had her best interests at heart. Ease your mind, my friend, and know peace about this because Pouncer will be the first to greet you at the Bridge, as you say, "one fine day".