Okay, okay, okayokayokayokayokayokayyyyyyy.

I get it.

I'm messed up. Troubled. Confused. I'm getting better though! I wish you all could see how wel I'm doing.

I'm happy. I don't care. Jay? Jay who? I've moved on. I'm better than that. Way better than that. I go out with friends, I laugh, I smile. I have fun.


I've found a quote that PERFECTLY emphasizes everything anyone has ever said to me on this message board.

"So do your heart a favor, sweetie.
Just turn around and leave.
It may not be what you think you want,
but, my god, it's what you need."


I'm getting better. I promise. Paul is a friend. I've got Anne, Kate, Larissa, Justin, Ryan, you guys... I've got all the people in the world to keep me centered and focused on being happy.

THINK HAPPYYYY.