Thank you everyone for the suggestions and well wishes. I am feeling a little better today. I actually got up, fixed some breakfast, got dressed and ran some errands. Believe me, THAT in itself is an accomplishment.

As for the effexor, I would LOVE to go back on it, but my doc has no samples,and I truly cannot afford it. I will not qualify for any progrmas since I have prescription coverage through my insurance. My doc was a pharmacist before she became an MD, and she told me that coming off of effexor would be rough. That is why she put me on celexa. Once I finished the effexor script, I was able to start right in with the celexa. It worked, but was just not the same as the effexor. So she thought we should try the tegretol. It seems to be having the opposite effect from what we are trying for.

I talked with a friend last night, and she talked with her Dad for me. He is an MD. He suggested I NOT take the tegretol and keep on the celexa at least throught his weekend and on Monday call my doctor and see what we can do. He thought that maybe I just need a larger does of the celexa.

I am also going to call about counseling on Monday. I have some other health issues that I have been ignoring, and I know that I should not. I have promised myself that I will take care of everything on Monday. I am going to clean house today (haven't done it in over a month! ) and try to keep busy. Thanks again. I just needed to vent about it all last night. I have kept it in for so long.