The good news is that Puddy does NOT have any tumors, growths or polyps on her remaining kidney or bladder. The bleeding had stopped by the time I took her in for her appt. (of course). The bad news is that Dr. Lee did an ultrasound and an x-ray and said that her kidney should be kidney bean shaped but it's the size and shape of a small pea. She has a lot of scar tissue on it. He said that if he could do a kidney biopsy he would be able to tell me how much time she has left but she gets stressed so easily and because she's so sick right now, he doesn't want to do it. He said to continue w/the subQs and antibiotic and phosphorous binder but if her BUN and creatinine start to go up towards 9 and higher, then I'll know what I have to do. As long as she's eating and has normal litterbox habits, I should just keep her comfortable and realize that her care is now palliative. He also said that she could surprise him and have maybe a year left but w/out doing the biopsy, he just couldn't say for sure. This is something that I always knew in my heart but I did not want to hear the words.

As soon as we got home, she went straight to the food dish and ate a little. Dr. Lee showed me on the x-ray that she hardly had anything in her stomach, just gas, poor girl. So I'm glad she ate a little.

Sigh. So that's it. I'm going to enjoy what time I have left w/my Puddy. My son wants me to visit him next month and now I have this dilemma. After all he's been through w/his recent illness, I feel I should go see him. But my cat sitter can't give Puddy her subQ treatments and meds and if I kennel her, Dr. Lee said it would stress her out way too much. I just don't know what to do. I've always said "people first" but I certainly don't want to do anything that would make Puddy worse. I can't think about it right now. My brain is fried and my nerves are raw from the past few weeks. I just need a rest. I sure hope things will calm down for Puddy now.