Dear Ryan,

We're going on a date tomorrow. Well, today, technically. I'm kind of nervous, because... well, I haven't "gone on a date" since the time I went to a movie with Jay.

Please be patient with me. I like you as a person, but I don't know if I'd like to date you yet. I have a really hard time trusting people, so don't expect me to be your best friend in the whole world by tomorrow night. Tonight, I mean. (It's past midnight, )

I will most likely try to push you away before I get attached to you. I've done that to everyone. If you want to stick around, stick around. Just please bear with me.

*sigh*

Here goes nothing.

Megan