I'm feeling a great deal of despair tonight. I had thought things were winding down and have entered a contract to buy a home in Illinois where my family is but suddenly a complication has cropped up and I don't know what it will mean yet. I know I need to be strong and have faith but I feel so worn down by everything and unable to cope tonight. I feel so alone. When will all of this come to an end? I just want to have some peace.