Thank you so much for the warm thoughts and hugs. Robin I'm always thinking of you too, praying for you and holding you close in my heart. In fact often when I'm having one of those hard moments I think of you and how you are going through this pain too. When I'm having a good moment I think of you and hope you are having good ones too. I'm glad to hear you had some time away from the pain and got to laugh and have good times with friends. There will be more of that to come, for both of us. For me, evenings/nights are always hardest, when the loneliness is greatest. I will be moving to Illinois as soon as this house is out of my name and I find one down there that is right. My mom and stepfather are helping me and looking. I'll be moving closer to them.