I am and thank you. thanks for bumping this up too, when I got the notification - I realized I've forgotten I wanted to update.

ok here it goes ..

a few of you know I picked him, my new cat up last friday morning, on the same day I left for camping.

I felt guilty leaving him alone here, well, not exactly alone - without me but my friend promised me she'd follow my instructions of introduction and that it'll only be three days..

so, when I came back, he was different from last time I saw him. physically, he was shredded really good by one of my friend's cats. all over his muzzle, shoulders and chest. really bad. not eyes, thankfully!

and emotionally, that poor little thing was shaking, meowing constantly like he's in pain in bathroom corner wanting me to pet him but is scared to death coming out. when I am near him and pet him, he falls down on his butt like I switched his neurosystem off and being all immobiled, relaxed.. that worries me ..

I kept on getting watery eyes everytime I seee him now. deeply my heart, I knew I shouldn't have left.. stupid me. I hope all of what happened wouldn't spoil him and his hope of new home.

last night I gave him a sooth warm bath because he had some dried blood over him, and was smelly when I got him - wow, in despite what happened, he did marvelously great.

he's all dry and clean now, snuggling up curled in his purple bed. he is doing well at his expectation today and still a sweetheart! he would let me rub his belly, acts like he never gets enough of it.

I was dumbfounded and felt so stupid for thinking I'd be a good meowmie. there's not much I could tell or reassure this cat that it will never happen again. I wish I'd take this all away with magic wand and just want to hold him all night. it wasn't kid's fault either, the boy accidentally opened the door when friend was in the kitchen and he got out.